posted this on my tumblr... it's a pretty long post so might as well post it as a blog entry...

finally! working on a new remix... wait that's never new...

what's different this time is that i'm actually going to FINISH it... soon! unlike all my other songs, this one i really can feel this being done sometime soon. it sounds really finished and i know exactly what instruments are left before i think it's complete. i think not knowing what else the mix needs is the main thing that prevents me from finishing a song. but i know exactly what it needs and i know it's done... don't believe me? HERE!!!

going to add some strings. nothing like getting that epic sound by adding a strings section to the song (it's pop-rockish).

gonna add some high bell synth sound. it comes in during the chorus to add this extra touch. the songs really heavy on the guitar and is starting to sound too rock. to keep it with the goal i'm going for (acoustic meets electronic to form uber cool pop-rock) i'm hoping this bell will bring more attention to the electronic sounds...

imma need another bass! the one i have is good and i think will be the main bass, but i want another to really drive the song. at some parts like the b-section, the bass is pretty slow... and the second b-section has this growing tension that i wish the bass would emulate... so a second bass should do the trick. i don't think it's going to play the entire song, but will just come in during the loud and driven parts.

and for extra credit i'll add a piano. but i don't NEED to... there was this one instance in the song i think a piano would sound great in, but if i don't think it fits anywhere else in the song then this instrument is out... which is weird, almost every song i make has piano... it's just such a versatile instrument! (i'm biased because i play it haha)

yeah so there! i'm not just blowin smoke, i really DO have everything figured out =P

sadly... i can't let anyone listen to it. it's for a remix contest so i'm not allowed to post the song anywhere. T__T but trust me... it sounds cool!

I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!

I'm getting very irritated. The way I see the world isn't the same as everyone else. I want to be a good person and I'm really trying, but I'm beginning to feel it needs to be a team effort. I'm very empathic so my emotions go with the flow, but my struggle to be a better person completely confuses my train of thought. Even though I have so much to say and I want to tell everyone, I have to keep my mouth shut so I can stay on the right path. People say it's okay to vent and I completely agree. But what's considered venting... and what's considered complaining? When you're getting things off your chest, can't it also sound hurtful to the others around you? That's why you can talk with someone in secret, but can't talk with the people directly involved in the situation. Sounds a bit hypocritical with this entry doesn't it?

I want to "vent" but can't find the proper words. I won't write about my situation here because I tend to sound like I'm complaining when venting in a blog. Like I said, I need to keep my eggs in one basket and just talk with one person. I'm in desperate need of a phone call right now...